So Hot & Bothered

Paeds first day!

sohotandbothered — Wed, 08 Jun 2011 10:51:05 +0000

Today I started tagging in paeds dept,my fifth housemanship posting (one more left to go woot!)..

For a start, I hate the tagging period, the going home at 10pm part especially. Anyway, paeds is like medical in a way, where the rounds are endless, admission round d clock, and I hate it. I don’t like the endless clerking, which seems

Fawwaz, October 29 1984 – June 3 2011

sohotandbothered — Sun, 05 Jun 2011 10:32:29 +0000

I don’t know whether anyone ever see this blog anymore, I hope they don’t because this is the only place I can write to you..

Dear fawwaz,

Words could not describe how I miss your presence. It’s true, we rarely misses the people we love until they are gone. But not you, you were there for me when I needed you.I know I have been selfish to my dearest brother, and now it’s too late. Your parting has hurt so many hearts, and it’s hurting mine so bad. The pain is so deep I just don’t know how long it will take to heal.

Everytime our families gather, you are by my side. When I’m hungry, you were there to eat with me. When I have no company to watch the movies, you were there to watch it with me. When I needed a ride, you were there to fetch me. No matter where I am, or how busy I was, you were there to remind me what family means.

I depended on you when everyone elses turn their back against me. I know lately I’ve turn my back against our family, and despite their silent complaints, you were there to give excuses for me. When everyone needed me and I was not there, you fill that responsibility for me.

Until now no one understands how your parting hurts me. You always said to me ‘dear cousin, why haven’t you picked up my calls’ and yet you always picked up mine. You would never hurt me, but why am I hurting so bad, brother?

When I see your lifeless body on the floor, my only wish, was that you were only sleeping and would wake up and tell us it was all a joke. It would be a cruel joke but I wish it nontheless just to hear your voice again. Why are your body so cold, brother? Why would you not wake up for me, brother? It’s cruel to make me see you like this.. They told me you were no longer with us, and of course I did not believe them, as you would never left my side.

Then they pulled me away from you, and then I realised it’s true, God has taken you away from me. I did not deserve you.

I know ‘you would hate seeing me like this’, a phrase I kept telling myself over and over again. I know you are at a better place, at His side, where the material world no longer matter. But please know, I am so sorry, no amount of tears may describe how sorry I am, for all my wrongdoings.

Your beloved

Jad

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19/1/11

sohotandbothered — Wed, 19 Jan 2011 06:47:48 +0000

It’s amazing how you can get a parking at this hospital everyday unless if you come at very early hours of the day. So I got my spot with less problem today even though *cough* I did not came to work early today. I have 4 patients to take care of while my boss is away until the weekend, which is very rare considering there were 19 patients earlier this month. I like orthopedic dept because in a way it teaches me to be independent.

So today I’m oncall again, and the day has been going pretty smooth so far, hopefully it stays that way until tomorrow afternoon

I’ll update this as the day goes by k peeps

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Location:Hospital Putrajaya

List of things I want to do this year

sohotandbothered — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:22:09 +0000

Hopefully it’s not too late to start a new year resolution, but I have a lot of plans I want to do and hopefully there’s enough time to do them all. I’ll be 27 this year, yeah 27!!! sigh I am old. So in keeping with the number, i’ll be having 27 lists of things to do, interesting ain’t it?

1. kickboxing – done
2. wall climbing
3. hire a personal trainer – done
4. updating my blog regularly
5. have the boss to be my bestie
6. go to the beach topless and proud of it
7. do one good deed one day at a time
8. be good at freestyle dancing
9. a six pack!
10. finish reading my first aid USMLE books
11. be able to wear my old jeans from last year!
12. do LOCUM!
13. get a postpaid line
14. have a 27th birthday party
15. able to do a proper handstand
16. go out of the country for travel at least once this year
17…. hmm still figuring out what to do and I’m sleepy i’ll update it tomorrow k guys

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how to be a best man

sohotandbothered — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:03:02 +0000

So last week derdz has been busy attending/being the best man for my cousin’s husband. Believe it or not, it’s a new thing for me, being the ‘pengapit’ part. So beside basically escorting the bride and groom there are nothing much to it really, except for of course having to stand in the middle of the stage for the whole duration of the wedding. My advice is, maintain your coolness at all times, you will be in most of the pictures taken during the night, so you would not want to look fugly in it, right? Ok so it has been great weekend.

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Ok…now for real lah!!

sohotandbothered — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 18:19:20 +0000

So I have been very very lazy to write in my own blog these past few months, well to tell you the truth, I blame it on being a houseman, period. This job is tedious and in a way, crazy..

Currently I’m doing my surgery rotation (almost 3 months now) and it has been the least fun rotation so far, yeah I know, this is only my second posting :S

Ok it’s 2am in the morning right now, and to tell ya the truth I’m very sleepy. Too many things to write but so little precious free time Anyway I hope my absence will end starting with this blog. I will update regularly from now on about my boring life k )

Adios for now

I’m back :)

sohotandbothered — Thu, 27 May 2010 17:12:47 +0000

Women

sohotandbothered — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 13:08:38 +0000

Good thing about computerised system is that well there are computers everywhere, and thankfully there is access to the world wide web at this hospital..but the worst part is that social networking websites are banned from viewing so takleh la nak lepak2 depan facebook bagai, which sucks really, time oncall when there is no patient (jarang but ada gak 10 min free kekadang) it would help la to release stress by keeping up to date with friends’ lives kan. WordPress tak ban tapi tak best la, coz I don’t really know to whom I’m writing to kan, could be anyone..

Ok ok back to the topic, well never thought I would write about it but I am basically surrounded by them in this working environment..In O&G we have only 2 male housemen, 3 male specialists, and only one male medical officer RELATIVE to 7 female housemen, 4 female specialists, and 14 female medical officers! since basically most of the time we housmen work with medical officers, so banyak la kerenahnye..and to top things of, of the 14 MOs only 3 kot who are not pregnant! so of course orang mengandung ni mood swing dia everywhere, yg kena swing mostly housemen la..Seriously some of them are arrogant tahap cipan punye, and few yg baru berapa bulan jadi MO ok, tapi dah berlagak mcm specialists, we have a name for people like that, we call them pseudo-specialists..yang pseudo-specialists ni lagi teruk dari specialists themselves ok!

I want it back!

sohotandbothered — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 11:26:44 +0000

So it seems I have been away from blogging for a few weeks, not surprising considering working hours mcm haram ni..I like helping people, but it has turn more into a shore than a desire lately..I’ve done my tagging 7am-10pm (which never ended on the dot by the way), now I’m into my oncall and I’m hating this working hours..penat tau..i know this is just houseman period but 2 years living like this sucks ass, imagine la ulang alik dari Subang everyday, by the time sampai umah dah nak dekat kol 12am pastu kol 5.30am kena bgn balik drive to work on everyday basis (inc lah the time when everyone cuti!) so I’ve been thinking of going back to eire to complete my internship there then probably migrate Down Under or Newzie..Balik tanahair hari tu pun sebab nak lepak ngan member2 but thinking about 2 years living like this before I can even have a glimpse of life is just not helping..

I know la keje new docs ni very challenging but this is just plain crazy. No wonder people fake going psycho just to get out of this. I pray everyday that the time comes when everything will be easier but till now tak rasa easy pun, lagi penat ada la..I know I sounds so whiny skang ni but I can’t help it! Penat! aaaa working hoursssssssssssssss CRAZYY..

First Posting

sohotandbothered — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 15:15:31 +0000

The real day (and night) starts tomorrow morning at the O&G department. Yes, that is my first posting, it’s weird really, people don’t usually get O&G as their first posting (even the specialist mentioned this) but hey my rezeki is here for the time being. So the tagging days start tomorrow at 7am in the morning till 10pm for every single day till the end of the month. Yeah, Saturday and Sunday (even public holiday) included That will be 18 days of tagging, one good thing about it is, no oncalls till next month (March).

And to make things less of a surprise, I just found out that my next posting will be in the Surgical Department, starting somewhere in June. I am going thru the logbook we have to fill in (and get signed by the Head of Department) before the posting is finished and felt nervous weih, there are so many compulsory procedures need to be done..

Oh by the way, papa is still in the hospital, he has ‘calcaneus fracture’ which is a heel fracture, yesterday his ankle area is still swollen so the surgery is postponed till the swelling subsides. Was so angry at him sebab jatuh tangga, boleh? He tried to reach the ceiling sebab nak do some wiring pastu ceiling tu dah la tinggi, tangga plak tu pendek so he thought putting a ladder on top a table would be a good idea, apparently not! since they gave away the moment he reached for the ceiling..I don’t think I’ll be able to visit him that often starting tomorrow sebab keje kan, visiting hours pun dah lepas, sigh..

p/s: to those who don’t know, “tagging” is a period of time where one affliated with the team, learn the ways, so that by the end of the tagging period one would know what to do especially when on-call etc la..tagging period differs between each posting, so far I’ve heard most dept requires 2 weeks of tagging. Mine would be for 18days.

Wish me luck people.. And Jonah-away